4am – Be with It

I woke up around 4 a.m. last night and looked at the clock, rolled over and tried to fall back asleep. I don’t recall having had any kind of bad dream, but I felt a bit of anxiety. My thoughts turned in an instant toward a friend I was worried about and whether I had done my best to give love and support. At that point I knew I was in jeopardy of feeling down about myself, but it was the middle of the night, when I know my mind can play tricks on me. Yet, I also realized I needed to acknowledge my self-doubts and worries, not pretend they didn’t exist. All of these things happened in the flick of a cat’s whisker. I breathed in and out to settle my brain. Clear as a bell, my inner voice spoke to me: “I’ll be OK. Be with it.” And I drifted back off to sleep…

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About goldenbearflyer

Robert Martz is a writer who doesn't make any money writing, so he keeps a day job in finance. He lives and works in Walnut Creek, CA. He began blogging in 2011 as a way of taking responsibility for and finding a place to put his thoughts and feelings. He loves to eat, cook, and travel. He volunteers, practices yoga, runs, bicycles, hikes, and explores nature with passion and a child-like sense of wonder. He is inspired by his amazing friends, doers and other writers. Check out another of his blogs at http://goldenbearflyer.webnode.com/.
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