How many times have I met another runner who conveys the message to me that they feel slow, that I should not wait up? Yet, I prefer to wait up! I am willing to go their pace, because I would rather share the path closely with another soul.
Often, for me it’s not about the running. It’s not because I’m lonely or can’t run by myself. It’s just a matter of priorities. I value the connection with that person at that moment.
Yes, sometimes I admit I wish someone would convey that they are waiting up for me, that they are consciously deciding to prioritize me and share a path with me.
The flip side is that for the first time in my adult life I am realizing what it feels like to truly enjoy being by myself. However, I had to go through so much to get here, so many times when someone figuratively would not “wait up” when I hoped they would.
What this means is that I learned that when no one is choosing me, I can choose myself!